I hope you understand that I honestly thought we were still in an unofficial relationship. Obviously you didn't feel the same. I don't think you'll get it, but that's why I'm so mad about you not fucking telling me. Were you planning to keep me in the dark forever? Because this feels like you fucking cheated on me.
I'm scared. Am I losing you?
I think I'm going to cry.
Is this my payback? Am I not good enough anymore? What should I do?
I have all these terrible thoughts and I know I shouldn't and maybe I'm overthinking but they won't leave me alone, and it scares me, I don't know what I'd do without you. You're my lifeline. I don't want to go back there again. Don't go. Please. I'm sorry for everything. Forgive me.