it hurts. I wonder why it does.
I've been writing for the past hour, writing about two people who are fucking perfect together and everyone's going "oh my god you two are so cute together" and everyone /accepts/ them and everyone fucking understands.
it makes me wonder why can't we be like that, too.
is it so hard just to let me be happy? just to let me love, and be loved?
why can't everyone just have their happy endings?
every time you do, a wave of unhappiness washes over me.
it kills me every time inside.
it amazes me I still have tears to cry.
just leave me alone. it took me this long to find happiness, just don't tear my world apart again.
hello, sleepless night.
I don't know what to do for tomorrow's training.
it doesn't amuse me seeing you like that. trust me, I'm not that demented yet.
I'm really finding no point in life any more. sometimes, it's only the promises I made that keep me going.
it's like, I need to be saved, but at the same time I don't want to open up this shell I've built.
tasukete, tasukete, ojisama, it hurts-
then again, I can only hope you'll realise I'm the kind of person who'll suffer in silence.
I shouldn't be jealous, but I'm sorry, I can't help it.
possessive much?
gdi I hate myself for this
I don't know ok I really don't know
and now fac is smothering me idek where to start please A ma'am save me yjm save me I'm drowning
I shouldn't cry.
Tasukete.
isn't that all i am? a failure?