once again I wonder what is the point of life.
Seriously, I wish I was brave enough to make myself bleed.
or something.
That's why I hate myself, I guess
too cowardly
too inefficient
too lazy
too
scared.
I don't even know where to start..?
and honestly, after the 3rd of september, everyone's been heaping their hopes on me. wanting me to promise i'll win this. but i can't, i just can't, I just don't have the hope or faith, I can't see anything but tears ahead of me.
"a leader is a dealer in hope".
can I?
I wish all these thoughts would just leave me in peace for a moment.